Friday, April 4, 2008

Real World

Oh my gosh on wednesday..I watched the MTV real world awards bash...they some of the cast from the past 19 years....I can't believe that shows been on that long....and I've watched every year...it's weird to see some of the older cast...to see them age...and have kids....but it was really cool.....I think that's where my addiction to reality tv started....
Last night I came across this paper....that was in my DT kit for scrappy chic...so I wanted to use it up...it's from the new my minds eye.... Sommer is looking forward to going over jenieces tonight for a slumber party for brees birthday.....You know your old when you get rid of your child, and all you can think about is going home and enjoying the quiet house and doing nothing...
Me and sommer went out to the cemetary yesterday, my grandma had told me that they cleaned off all the wreaths, and because he doesn't have a headstone yet...I wanted to bring some flowers out..........and as we sat there...and "talked" to him....I asked him if I will ever be happy again?? and my wise daughter says....mom you will never "really" be happy again...you lost your husband....wow!! I've been wanting to go to the spot where he actually died....it's been on my mind alot...just don't know if this would be a good thing yet or not....but I need to see....and my brother found him...so I thought I would have him take me...and maybe leave some kind of marker there.....oh well not today , not tomorrow..but I think soon........have a great weekend.....

6 comments:

Julie Howard said...

Your 'Since You've Been Gone' made me take a second look at your profile... which in turn, lead me to your blog. I'm so sorry for everything that you're dealing with. You are, truly, in my thoughts.

Stacey said...

wow that page is gorgeous! I love that new paper! Hope you are having a good day! ((hugs))

Chris Nicholson said...

I can't believe the Real World has been on that long! I, too, think I became addicted to reality TV from that very same show. I've watched almost every single season since it started, but I must have missed that reunion show... bummer! By the way, it sounds like you're really growing from everything you've had to deal with, and you're taking some very brave steps. It's great you have such a wonderful support system. :)

Benita said...

{{{Staci}}} First, I just gotta say I love that layout! I think putting a 'marker' is an excellent idea. We have 2 crosses in the yard where my sister & brother-in-law were killed at. The lady that owns the house said she will always keep them there for us. Every year, we add new flowers & 'resurface' the crosses as the writing wears off from the weather & every year, I sit there & cry. But it's also been a healing process for all of us. When the time is right, you'll know it.

Hugs,
Benita

Beate said...

Beautiful layout!!
Love your work. :)

Vee said...

super gorgeous layout! I missed the awards, urgh!!!! this season is going to be the beast, they ALL seem out of control. Love it! :)