Tuesday, May 6, 2008

good days/bad days....

I am learning that I never know when a bad day is going to hit....yesterday..my brother and dad fixed the lawnmower, my yard looks beautiful...went to get a root canal..at the dentist too...was a piece of cake...but by 9pm I am crying so hard my eyes are swollen, and I am throwing up!! nice pic for you....I think it started cause I started bickering with sommer...about stupid stuff...and sometimes that gets exhausting when you don't have a partner to share...the parenting with..., and then with mothers day coming....I am used to dragging out the mothers day into an almost Mothers "week"......but there's no one to really pamper me...to spoil me..to take care of me...(okay that's sounding a little selfish....huh?) I think I am just super lonely...and it's a lonely only he can fix...'cause I've got the family, the friends...but when I went outside to look at the fresh cut yard.....I just felt this rage.....I used to look out in this yard..and think I could live here forever, I loved our little patch of country....but I don't feel it anymore...or at least not today...so in the middle of all that I did this months journal prompt which was "stolen" and it kinda fit....what I like about the journal pages...is that even this morning ...I look at my journaling from a different place...and I hope to look at the entire journal next year...and say wow...look how far I've come... and I finished the mini book I was working on....I got this cute 12x12 page of flash cards...in my design team kit at scrappy chic...they're from paper salon..and another thing that is nice is one side is like a mustard yellow..and if you don't like that the other side is a purple...so the pages were premade for ya...and they fit perfectly in the bind it all...and plus I picked up some black chipboard which they sell in individual sheets....(but then I painted them white anyway...but scuffed them up for a vintage feel)
and the colors do not match..yes that's orange,blue, red and mustard....what??
I did'nt post all the pages....I didn't realize there were so many...but I wanted to take some pics because I will probably be droppin' it off at Scrappy Chic this week..but you can take a look at all the pages over at Tally Scrapper http://www.tallyscrapper.com/scrapbook_gallery_view.php?layout_id=28719








6 comments:

Michelle said...

Beautiful mini album - your work is amazing as always....big hugs to you - just reading your post made me tear up...(((hugs)))

Anonymous said...

Hang in there my love...you are such a beautiful person who does not deserve this torture. I wish I could make it all better.

Jeniece

Amanda Ann said...

Your mini album is gorgeous!!

Bug hugs for you!!

Anonymous said...

Coming out of lurkdom to say ...
The love story you and your husband shared has touched me and I'm sure many others.
We should all be so lucky to have loved and been loved like the two of you :*)

Jody

Anonymous said...

Sweetie I'm so sorry that you have to have bad days, just know that they will only make you stronger... sending the biggest hugs your way.

Sarah

Anonymous said...

Love the mini album... and your stolen page..they beautiful. I feel like such are part of your life, when you share all that is good and bad with us...It will get better....love..Sandi