Friday, December 14, 2007

.....Total "melt" down!!!

Oh!! yesterday...i had a total "melt" down.......over a flat tire....which now sounds like not that big of a deal...but at the time....it was huge to me!! I had dropped off sommer at school....and then decided to pick up a few things I needed for christmas......I should've just went back home then....After running into meijers....I came out to a completely "flat" tire.....and then it hit me....I can't just call Ed anymore....I felt so alone...before i would've called Ed, he would've left work...plugged my tire right there in the parking lot...and off i would've went.....but lucky for me I used to work for a tow company...and they came and pumped up my tire, and followed me across the street to walmart, which I figured I would just get a new tire...so I don't have to worry ...well after 2 hours of waiting..they tell me I don't have the special locking thing for my tire!!!! So i say where can i buy it....the first guy tells me..."you can't" what do you mean you can't?? like if you loose this tool....you're car is junk??? So they pump up my tire...which has a hole...and basically skoot me out the door....by now I am a crying blubbering mess!!! scared that at any moment my tire is going to pop......not knowing anything about this stupid tool...I need...so I go back to the towing place (Cj's Towing) love 'em!! and they went and looked at my tire...found out that the bad tire didn't even have the locking peice on it!!! I wanted to scream but instead I just cried some more!! I was literally stuttering....I lost my mind for a few hours.....!! but they gave me a tire....yay!! So I just went home and went to bed.....the bad part is that I am a little affraid to go to far from home again....I was just feelin' all brave....and then this happens......but in the end...I am thankful that it was just a tire.....and I did ask for help, people did help....and then later that night....my brother called and was almost mad that I didn't call him too......Okay...now that I have vented...I feel a little better, just need a few extra prayers this next week or two...I am feelin' the blues coming pretty hard.......I miss the physical-ness ...if that's a word!! just his touch.....!!.....it's so hard!! But tonight I am going croppin' with the CM peeps........right now I don't even feel like taking my stuff....but I am hoping that will change....and I will feel the itch!! here are 2 pages I did a couple days ago....this first one is for a challenge "scrapping the music" ........
and this one...started off good....and just went down hill.....


7 comments:

mindakims said...

Oh darling, so sorry that all had to happen! I wish I could take your pain away, if only for a moment, so you could catch a break. Keep reaching out to your friends and family, it isn't the same, but they want to help you I am sure! And of course we are here to listen...wish it could be more.

nancy_scraps said...

Oh Staci, it so understandable that something like that would cause distress and grief.

Blessings to you. Every day. Especially through the ordinary stuff.

Gen said...

wow, what an eventful day! im glad you're ok though...thankfully, i havnt had a flat yet..i hope that never happens to me! lol. anyhoo...thanx for your comment. we are hoping for a girl, so cross your fingers!!! hehee! BTW...your layouts are sooo cute....but then again they always are. Im kinda bummed cuz i havnt been able to scrap in months!!!! i started working and now the rest of my life seems to be unraveling...i cant seeem to keep up on the house and i have no time at all for scrapin! I just need to figure out how to manage my time better...but for now its crazy! lol. well thanks again for your comment...ttyl.
~gen

sjtowers said...

ohhh Staci! I am so sorry...I don't even know what to say girl...You are in my prayers every night..glad everything turned out with the car! Wish I could do more...but I am always here to "listen"!!

Andrea Amu said...

Staci, my heart hurt for you while reading through your post... I just wish I had something to say that would give you comfort. If only we could take away your pain...((big hugs)) to get you through these next few weeks and beyond.

I love the scrapbook pages too. The one you did for Scrap the Music is perfect... love the swirl you made!

Rachel Whetzel said...

Staci. I can only imagine... and it made me cry doing it. Love you hon! Wish I could say or do something more...

Angy said...

Hi Staci,

It's hard going through the motions, but isn't great that you made it through in the end. You are strong and will continue to be more confident of yourself. Good job girl! Love ya, Angy