Friday, January 11, 2008

11 weeks

Fridays are always a reminder of the last day I saw Ed.....I can't believe that it has been 11 weeks...., at first I couldn't imagine him not walking through the front door.....but now I am afraid that it's getting harder to imagine him walking through that door.......that scares me.....plus I've caught myself trying not to look at the pictures on the walls of him......I was walking down the hallway...yesterday..and I felt my eyes hit the floor...when I walked past the pics...because when I do look...I just want to pull him through those pics...and it makes me stare....and miss the lil' things...it's weird...but I stare at his arms, his ears...his eyes....his smile..his hair...I miss every single part of him...that I thought I would have for alot longer....Oops there I go again!!!.....ranting.. Okay..I have a suggestion for when you're having a crummy day....Hot Red Nail Polish!!! Oh yeah....Jeniece brought some over on project runway night!!! and there is something uplifting about looking down at those red nails.....and also notice something else on my hand....My wedding band....during the painting and moving of furniture....I found my band under sommers bed.....It's funny that we found both our rings......now!!! But it felt good to put it back on.....and here's another peek at my bedroom....that I just painted...and put the wall words...that christine from Tally Scrapper gave me.....I love them ...and it's a saying I beleive....in...even though there isn't as much "laughter" at there was 11 weeks ago.....but we're trying....
we were just talking about how after a few weeks everybody starts getting on with their lives and the cards and phone calls stop.....and then all of a suden...I got 2 cards in the mail......the just thinking of you cards!!! From Jessie and JJ!! thanks guys...both made my day......always gives me a boost.....
you know what else gives me a boost!! A free yellowfence T-shirt in the mail!!! Already!!! and don't forget to go leave a comment on their blog today!!! http://yellowfence.blogspot.com/

I love it...!!!



14 comments:

Andrea Amu said...

I can totally understand about counting the weeks... it sucks! But you have such a great attitude and strength about you, Staci! Just keep hanging in there, girl. That's all we can do... keep breathing...

What a great shirt, and how fun that it was a freebie too! I also love your wall words. I need to get me some of those thingies!

Have a good weekend! :)

lindsay/aggiebonfire00 said...

hey staci,

i would send you another note but i misplaced your address. i hope you don't think we've just moved on and forgotten what you and your girls are going through. i definitely haven't. you in my daily prayers.

your scrapbook pages are awesome! you make me want to try scrapbooking in a different size.

love the wall saying! i know right now it's probably hard to laugh...but from all the wonderful things you have said about your husband...he would want your days to be filled with joy and laughter.

Christine said...

beautiful Staci!

Rachel Whetzel said...

Know that I think of you EVERYDAY...

dori said...

wow... you are a wonderful person!

your wall looks great!

Julia said...

Thinking of you...the wall saying is wonderful too!

Jenn said...

Hey girl! I have been thinking about you! It sounds like you have a great support system of friends that are keeping you busy. Love all your layouts and have a blast in VA!

Rachael said...

Awww, Staci! I wish I could give you a hug!!

Your walls look fabulous!!!

Thanks so much for commenting on my daughter's layouts!! She loved it when I read them to her!

Charity S. said...

You keep breathing girl!

we're still here....reading your every word.

happydays525 said...

I love your wall, really classy. And sorry to hear that you are going through such a rough time. ((hugs))

Anilu Magloire said...

You do what you gotta do. We all deal with our grief in different ways.
I know...
Love how your room looks!

Michelle said...

Staci, this post brought tears to my eyes. I just wanted you to know that I think about you and your girls all the time and I'm so glad that you're posting your thoughts here. You're so amazing.

PS - your wall looks gorgeous! I love that quote :)

mindakims said...

this may seem backwards, but when you write about what you miss about your husband it makes you seem so alive. You have a beautiful spirit my dear and you will never know how much it means that you share your journey with us.

We at Tally are still there for you, every day...how did the Social Security meeting go?

sjtowers said...

Your room is awesome! I love the wall word and the color is great! I keep thinking about you...I know how it feels to count the weeks...my dad died 16 years ago now...seems so weird...
((hugs to you))