Friday, July 25, 2008

long week

I can't believe that a week ago......I was at CHA...I am so glad that I went.....but let me tell you it has been a rough week after, I just felt wiped out.....both physically and metally...and creatively...is that a word?? I am learning that when i get to get away...I can enjoy it and have fun.....but afterwards I seem to hit a bottom, the closer we got to home I felt it coming, hearing all the other ladies I was with get phone calls from their husbands/boyfriends , knowing that I wasn't going to get that call....and that I was going home....and he wouldn't be there...I cried on and off for like 2 days afterwards, I keep a picture in my car...usually above my visor...and I actually had to take it down.....it just hurt to much, to look at someone...I want so bad to be back in my life, but know in my heart that he won't ..........but with my faith, friends and family....I keep going, even though I sometimes just feel like a robot....just getting through the days....each day gone , is a day closer to being with him.....I am supposed to go and crop at alisons tomorrow, I figured even if I don't feel like croppin' maybe just hang out....shoot I never get anything done...at crops lately anyway!!! but enough with the jabberin'.......I have been just playin' at my scrap table this week.......I got a new toy...the round it all.....didn't know that Scrappy Chic got them in....so basically I rounded anything and everything....... it was great for rounding the edges on acrylic and chipboard.....cardboard!! I also watched Ali edwards play with alcohol inks at CHA...she was droppin' dots on acrylic and it made these cool circle smears....so I made this tiny mini book for sommer of her birthday.......check out the rounded corners....



how cool is that?? I wonder if you could ink the entire thing to make colored acrylic..?


okay I rounded the corners on my CHA book too...I told you I was rounding everything!!



I am still working on it....but I wanted to show you a page....where I decided to add all the buttons I collected from the booths at CHA....this book is going to be so heavy...and bulky.....oh well....it's for me...






did a couple simple pages....this pic was inspired by renee, she loves those blurry messed up pics......can you guess where I am..?? in the bathroom stall at the hotel we stayed in.....don't worry I'm not sitting on the pot or anything...just thought the door had a cool look....it's funny 'cause I remembered to shut off my flash...I thought if people start seeing a flash go off...what exactly are they going to think I am taking a picture of???




another one...this is a great picture of mikey and sommer.....


sommer is going to a monster truck show tonight...so i know she is going to have fun.....never thought my girl would be so excited to go ....thanks everybody...for always being there...even when I am having a crappy day...and post here...I feel like I let it out....crazy or not!! and I feel better.....






17 comments:

Anonymous said...

So that's where you've been....man, you were busy! I am so sorry you've had a rough week, sending hugs your way. And if you just don't feel like coming tomorrow, no pressure...just remember that you live close by and we might just take a road trip! haha I'm with you on not getting anything done at crops lately. Maybe I will just spend my time making my new fave drink for you....Skyy vodka and berry pomegranate juice. Sound like a plan?

Alison

Stacey said...

oh wow!! Those mini albums are looking fab!! I love the buttons that is such a great idea!! (One I will have to steal as I am planning on going to the winter CHA) Totally love your pages! Have a fun time at your crop!!!

Kip said...

You've accomplished a lot more than I have since getting home!! I ended up with a nasty cold and have been in bed so yuck. Love your button page- that was a great idea!

Kip

Carla said...

I can't wait to see you at the crop... I get to go...I may be a little late but I'm coming!!

I feel like I haven't seen you in forever... I miss me little scrap family!!!

L,
Carla

Sandi Arnold said...

I am loving the corner rounding thing...the Birthday book and CHA book look great..please bring them to Allison's for us to see them in person! I am so sorry you were feeling blue...but hopefully we'll be able to cheer you up on Saturday...Allison's got a great plan!

Anonymous said...

I sure hope you do make it to Alisons tomorrow, haven't seen you in a while and I'm missing ya!

Don't worry about getting anything done...I never do!!!

Love Ya!
Miki

Linda Beeson said...

Jealous of your CHA trip but glad you got to go! Maybe I'll hit the winter one. I just managed to find that Zutter corner rounder! I've been looking since Winter CHA - I was soooo needing it for chipboard.

Sarah said...

Beautiful pages, love the doodle circles on that last one! I hope you're up for scrapping at Alison's tomorrow, it should be fun! =)

Gen said...

OMG! isnt the zutter corner round amazing!! Im a bit round happy myself lol. I love that alcohol ink technique...very cool! And your layouts are super cute as always :)

betsy (pharmgirl) said...

Cool tool! Gotta get one - my corner rounders are just not cutting it anymore - no pun intended!

betsy (pharmgirl) said...

oh - and wanted to add - LOVE your layouts, but i always have. :)

Michelle said...

sending some more hugs your way (((hugs)))

LOVE your layouts...gonna need to get one of those corner rounders tomorrow when I go to SC!

Robin said...

That song gets me every time...thinking about you today and always. Big hugs.

Susan Beth said...

You don't know me, but my heart is so touched by what you wrote today. I'm an infrequent lurker, who suddenly wishes so much to have a face to face conversation and give you a big hug. I heard a Christian radio program today that said with the death of a loved one others seem to be waiting for you to "get over it," and that will never happen, so you need permission to just keep on going carrying the weight of the loss. I completely agree! Yes, your life goes on, but no, there is no time where it won't be impacted by your loss. Surround yourself with others, especialy other believers, because God gave you the body of believers to be his physical arms and ears and voice during these times. Stay connected! It is so very important! And frankly, it appears that given your circumstances, you are doing far better than most - two days of crying not-with-standing!

Babydoll said...

Sorry you had a bad moment. I pray that the pain lessens as the time goes by...{{HUGS}}

latte_grande said...

Just here to give you a {{{HUG}}}}...I'm praying for you, hon.

Anonymous said...

Hey girl,
I really know how you feel if I was to journal how I feel most days it would be those same words. It is so hard to go on when you had what we had with our mates. 40 yrs and we still held hands at night watching our favorite tv shows. If you really ever need to talk call me or email me as I do fell these things. I went to have a pop with my couisin yesterday and she was talking about Joe and then she told me what it was like when she lost her guy. I did not realize how much their life was together. Take and I do care Love Kathy