Happy Birthday Baby..........

Today Ed would've turned 38...I should be teasing him about being so much older than me (okay so I'm only 36) but....hey it's what we did...I should be picking up your favorite sugar free ice cream, and cooking your favorite birthday dinner ,baked spagetti.....but instead..i will got to the cemetary....and try to actually believe that you're in there...I came across this poem...that really says alot of how I feel...

Our Love Can Never Die

A Poem by Brenda Sue

Life just isn't the same since God came to take you away.

It's a blessing they say because He took you.

I just never imagined it would end this way.

I couldn't comprehend you'd actually be taken away.

Now I have a void in my heart since the day we've had to part.

The pain is still here; I grieve for you each day.

They say with time it will heal but there's not enough time in the world for this pain to heal.

I pray you know I've loved you from the very start.

I still can't believe your gone and we're apart.

I thought we'd live together forever,I don't know what went wrong.

Always I think of you when I hear your favorite song.

I love to think on me you're looking down.

I think of you just as I did before,Because no sudden gust of wind could ever close our door.

I write you this because I know you're there,that after death there must be more.

When I pray I hope you can hear me,to know for you I'll always care.

I'll never forget the lessons you taught,

How to stand strong on my own two feet,

Love is given to be shared and life isn't always fair.

You showed me God is never out of reach and He will always care.

and look at these beautiful baby pics.....

and here are couple pics from his birthday last year.......

mom had bought him some clothes.....and of course he had to pose for a pic

and Ed and mom..........Never thought he would never make it to his 38th birthday.

I miss you so much, sometimes the pain is almost too...much, I miss the laughter...the jokes.., I miss how safe I felt in your arms...and the unconditional love...that you always gave me...I never doubted your love...you were so good to me..., you took care of me...in life and I still think you are now....I know that you would've of never of left me...if you didn't have to....and that if you could be here with us...you would...love you...