so sweet.....

Look what I got yesterday!! Tonee's best friend Tiffany....gave me this for christmas.....this yummy bath & body gift basket....the scent is sweet pea...it smells so good!!, and just a really thoughtful thing for a "teenager" to do......she even bought sommer some stuff!! I haven't taken a bath in years.....(okay wait that didn't sound right) I usually take showers not baths....but I think this gift basket with the bubble bath is telling me its time for a bubble bath.....Okay probably too much info huh?? and this year.....I decided to just plaster my kitchen wall with all the beautiful christmas cards that I am getting.....everytime I go by....I feel the love!! and if you look real close you can see Gitta...on the fridge...and yes that is his leg up around his neck......what am I gonna do?? and my stray chicken/turkey/whatever...is gone!! I think Wendell came by and scooped him up for christmas dinner.......hee,hee!

these are 2 layouts I got done.....for challenges....this first one is of my dad and my nephew.....Mike & Mikey...

and this is one of me and the girls from last year......

Can't wait till the christmas party tonight at Scrappy Chic.....

Our new "stray"

look what showed up at my front door yesterday.....we are used to getting strays...but they're usually furry!!! I am not even sure what it is?? Maybe some kind of turkey or pheasant?? all I know is he has kind of a dinosaur face.....and I looked out on the front porch this morning and he's still here....probably didn't help that I fed him! huh?? He just looked so cold....and hungry!
and then....I got a fun surprise package in the mail!! It was full of the cutest goodies, ribbon, chipboard...and even a gift card for starbucks!! all from the sweetest lady over at 2p's thank you Andrea Amu!!! It really made my day!!! and I can't wait to use the card.....yumm

Tiffany came over last night....and I told Tonee' I need some new pics.....so they clicked a few new ones for me...love 'em

Tomorrow is the christmas party for the Scrappy Chic girls...looking forward to that, except that we are supposed to bring our first scrapbook to share....yikes!!!

sick day!!

I've got sommer home sick today....she feels better than yesterday...but she's still coughing alot...so I figured I would keep the germs here one more day!!! Only 3 more days and shes on christmas break......She is getting really excited about christmas...starting to really count the days, hours,minutes....ha,ha!! .....to be a kid again....at christmas!! I finished 2 pages yesterday the first one was for a challenge over at tally scrapper, you had to use a line from "twas the night before christmas" as your title......and then , I remembered that I always took pics of the flowers ed would send me....so I figured that I need to get them in the albums...and as far as the title...on the cards they would always just say "love ed" , he had bought me roses for sweetest day...about 5 or 6 days before he died...and I took pics of those too....and they are actually still in a vase....in my room....so you can imagine how crusty they're....but it feels good to have them there right now...with the card still attached that says "love ed"
someone on scrapbook.com said the title almost looks like it says Loved...cute!!!

snowed in!!

Came across this picture of Sommer and Ed this past fathers day......we had a cook out/pool party.....I just know that this photo...will always be priceless to sommer...I have tried to scrap it a couple of times...but haven't been able to yet....Last night I had a dream that this was all just one of his practical jokes!! that he came home last night.....and I was so mad at him for doing it...but so releaved that none of this was real!! he just laughed....and said he wanted to see how I would react!! I wish....I wish.......I wish.......that he would come home.!? please....Okay....all it takes is coming across his pic...and I loose it again...but today I am hanging out with sommer because she had a snow day...., I think we are defintely going to have a white christmas........
love being snowed in......just scrapped all day...when I should've been cleaning...but hey screw it!! Sommer edy...has a cold..so she's kinda feelin' crappy....but a little better than yesterday.......Can you see those christmas lights around the door way....yep..me and sommer hung those ourselves....I kinda felt like clark griswald.......up on the ladder trying to staple these lights up.....

and here are 2 layouts I got done.....during the snow storm!!

Sommer took these pictures of me and baby mikey sunday morning (which explains why we both have bed head), he stayed the night with us......he was so good!!

It's snowing.......

sitting here.....waiting for the big snow storm that we are supposed to get!! fingers crossed!! Lil' Mikey is staying the night tonight......so I'm sure I will be so tired tomorrow!! Last night I went croppin' with the CM peeps...the crop was from 6pm till 1am.....so it was a late night , but it was good to get out....and when I got there...I even had some christmas presents.......Julie got me this awesome gratitude journal...that I started last night.......it's about writing down the things you're thankful for....even when life stinks!!then heather...bought me the cutest "kitty" scrapbook......I am sure Gitta will be the "star" of this album!!!
and these are 2 pages I got done......and I am using them to try out for the Tally Scrapper Design Team.....I have tried out a couple times, and last time...I lost by 2 points!!

tonight I kept trying to imagine Ed coming out of the bedroom.....during the commercials of family guy....to tell me the funny parts, he would always try and tell me what was funny...but then he would crack his own self up...trying to say it....which would in turn make me laugh........I am missing him tonight.....I went and cleaned out the chicken coop tonight...he had bought a bunch of hay to put in the coop so they will keep warm, so with the storm coming....I got them all nice and cozy!! A lady at the crop last night who had lost her husband about 10 years ago, told me that in the beginning....it's almost like God puts this bubble around you ....so that you can get through this....but then your bubble has to start coming off....and I feel like my bubble is coming off........Okay...I really shouldn't blog at night....to much on my mind...but hey that's what bloggin's for!!

.....Total "melt" down!!!

Oh!! yesterday...i had a total "melt" down.......over a flat tire....which now sounds like not that big of a deal...but at the time....it was huge to me!! I had dropped off sommer at school....and then decided to pick up a few things I needed for christmas......I should've just went back home then....After running into meijers....I came out to a completely "flat" tire.....and then it hit me....I can't just call Ed anymore....I felt so alone...before i would've called Ed, he would've left work...plugged my tire right there in the parking lot...and off i would've went.....but lucky for me I used to work for a tow company...and they came and pumped up my tire, and followed me across the street to walmart, which I figured I would just get a new tire...so I don't have to worry ...well after 2 hours of waiting..they tell me I don't have the special locking thing for my tire!!!! So i say where can i buy it....the first guy tells me..."you can't" what do you mean you can't?? like if you loose this tool....you're car is junk??? So they pump up my tire...which has a hole...and basically skoot me out the door....by now I am a crying blubbering mess!!! scared that at any moment my tire is going to pop......not knowing anything about this stupid tool...I need...so I go back to the towing place (Cj's Towing) love 'em!! and they went and looked at my tire...found out that the bad tire didn't even have the locking peice on it!!! I wanted to scream but instead I just cried some more!! I was literally stuttering....I lost my mind for a few hours.....!! but they gave me a tire....yay!! So I just went home and went to bed.....the bad part is that I am a little affraid to go to far from home again....I was just feelin' all brave....and then this happens......but in the end...I am thankful that it was just a tire.....and I did ask for help, people did help....and then later that night....my brother called and was almost mad that I didn't call him too......Okay...now that I have vented...I feel a little better, just need a few extra prayers this next week or two...I am feelin' the blues coming pretty hard.......I miss the physical-ness ...if that's a word!! just his touch.....!!.....it's so hard!! But tonight I am going croppin' with the CM peeps........right now I don't even feel like taking my stuff....but I am hoping that will change....and I will feel the itch!! here are 2 pages I did a couple days ago....this first one is for a challenge "scrapping the music" ........

and this one...started off good....and just went down hill.....

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Yesterday started off pretty good.....then my dad had to come by and pick up ed's work cell phone......and he actually always carried 2 of them..but we have never been able to find the other one, so I went out to check the garage...and boy oh..boy was that a mistake...!! I felt like the walls were closing in on me....Of course everything out there is Ed...so many projects, the hood on Tonee's car still open...cause he was working on it..the hay for the chickens he was getting ready to put out for them for the winter, his grease rag...just sitting on the table..waiting for him to come home....just like me....I lost it...I wonder if the neighbors could hear me....then my brother came over to stack wood...for us...and I watched the kids while he did it......so i boo hoo-ed on his shoulder a little...he has really been amazing!! and I know he is hurting so much too...I mean when we started dating my brother was 9 so ed was like a big brother to him....plus mikey is actually the one that found Ed at the landfill....which has to be just awful...But he brought over my beautiful neice and nephew...which alway brighten my day....lil ms...Destiny and here I am baiting him with the candy cane..
and of course we all know that sir Gitta is a little crazy....but check out his new cat bed....I swear he has been sleeping on the toilet for about 3 days......???? I think he's crazy....it can't be comfortable...

here are 3 of my latest layouts.....been feeling the christmas bug .....and I even did a layout of miki's rock candy...there was a challenge to do a layout with a christmas song as your title over at tally scrapper.....and hard candy christmas is one of my favs.....so it fit with the pics...

and this one came about cause I have this basket of bulbs on the table that just looked so beautiful, so the nice thing about having the printer at home...is you can take a pic...and boom you're ready to scrap it....and this last one is one I tried to do the other night at jenieces...but she was rockin' out some awesome page....and this is what I got....that's usually how we roll....if one of us had the mojo..the other one doesn't......obviously....

Can it really be project runway wednesday already??? and they keep saying that somebody is going home...I think!!!