13th weigh in on the optifast program at Great lakes weight and wellness

Somerset Memories Toot X 3....

when ever I need that scrap boost....Somerset seems to send me out that email to make my day!! they requested 4 layouts...but one of them was already picked up by another magazine....but I am thrilled to send out the other 3!!! and that inspired me to scrap a little.....did one page....trying to get back into the scrappin' mood...I think I need it!!! did a little shoppin' at Scrappy Chic yesterday...I am in love with these new stickers from heidi swapp..you get a pink sheet and a black sheet...with the cutest sayings on them, and then I had to have these alphas from prima...they're like a cream with a black outline!! yum.....I think I may be in love with these.....
the reason I was at scrappy chic besides, the fact that it feels like I haven't been there in forever, last night was the VIP dinner....which I was excited to be a part of..there were about 12 of us...and they had a craft for us to do...when we got there..these adorable basic grey christmas ornaments...which I finished up today and hung on the tree...then we had a delicious candle lit dinner...which erin cooked...and it was delicious...and yes I ate it...but kinda cut my pita bread in half...and just skimmed the rice, but I ate the vegies...and peppers and chicken...then came the dessert tray full of creme puffs....but I grabbed one...and just kinda picked at it...left about half of it on the plate, made me feel like I was eating like a "normal" person...but still didnt' over do it!! and then to top it off we got a goodie bag...and a discount for shopping!! it was a great time...

knowing this mood I've been stuck in......I knew I needed a bff fix...so stopped over jenieces...and look what she got me!! I love old cameras...and this old polaroid is so stinkin' cute!!! I'm gonna put it on my shelf in my scrap room....but it was a much needed visit...and I am feeling better...I know that I always do feel better...just start to lose it....once in awhile..think I just get tired of being strong...I'm just not the strong type..but sometimes life makes you be what you never planned on being.....and I am so looking forward to my grief group...this week!!! it is always a big...vent...session...and I feel this huge strength come over me...after meeting with these strong woman each month who have made it through this nightmare....

and then today is weigh in day......been hitting the gym almost everyday..and now Tonee' has joined too...so it's kinda cool to have her hanging out with me....and even ran into Mel from my weight loss group.....there this morning...well wish me luck tonight talk to you all tomorrow!!

Christmas In Ida

as usual it snowed..and was cold for the parade....but this year we were prepared with the yes I know very "sexy" hat and scarfs...
and we are almost embarrased to admit that we didn't even stay for the parade...we walked around and looked at all the vendors...she ordered some french fries....and then when we realized we still had about an hour and a half til' the parade....we decided to go home....

so we picked up some subway....their chicken salad is awesome by the way...and came home and watched a dvd...the happening...it was so scary...seriously I had my eyes covered a couple of times.....but it was that scary in a weird way

....so we had fun tonight...and let me tell you I needed it!! been fighting feelin' the blues lately.....the best way to explain it...is I feel like the "real" staci died right along with Ed....and now..I am still functioning.....living each day...doing what I am supposed to...but it's just a shell of this new me, who is cold and distant...I feel like..I don't really feel anything...unless it's heartache over not having ed...I stare at my christmas tree trying so hard to feel that ....spark of christmas...but I don't...I don't feel anything....I don't know how...to enjoy life without him...he left me...he promised to be here...and to always take care of me...last night I cried so hard ...just begging him to come back.....I'm just tired of being alone...tired of being in charge...tired of being the only adult....I want to fall asleep in his arms tonight....and for him to whisper that everything is going to be alright.....I almost wish I could borrow.....or rent...someone elses hubby for a few nights..(get your mind out of the gutter) just to have a body (by the way he would have to be chubby..) someone to use to fall asleep next to...but what good does this do me...he's not coming back, I will never hear him whisper anything to me again....and I will never fall asleep in his big caring arms.....so I will keep going on...waiting for the day...I feel again....sorry didn't mean for this rant ...but it always helps when I just put it out there.....good night

thought it was so cute that Chris wanted to decorate the tree with us...he actually did more than more girls...they usually put an ornament or two on..and then disapear...they all look like bratts in this one!!
and here she is.....simple and real...I love it!!

after decorating..we rented step brothers...oh my gosh it was so funny!! but sitting back and looking at the beautiful christmas lights couldn't help but to miss Ed tonight.....he would always get so excited about making the girls have a good christmas....and I just wish he were here....

Today is my neice Destiny's birthday she is 7...gotta run and get her a present for her birthday party tonight....she always wants horse stuff...and then I need to rest up for tomorrow we are going to the Christmas in Ida night parade of lights..I think this will be our 3rd or 4th year....and every year it's freezing cold..last year we got rained on..then it snowed..so we were walking snowmen...but my friend JJ always has a float...for creative memories...with this giant pair of scissors...it's awesome...and they have a radio disney concert which sommer loves!!! and every....year..we freeze so bad..I say we aren't doing this again...but here I am planning again..it is beautiful though like a ton of floats all lit up in christmas lights.... http://www.christmasinida.com/eventschedule.php

I scrapped a page yesterday...of us getting our tree...I love new pics...nothing makes me scrap more than new pics..... the tree is up...Chris carried her in.....
and it was so cute when he cut the string....the branches popped out...and about knocked him over...

and we have decorated it too.....will post those tomorrow.....

Griswold Family Christmas

it may have been a Compher family christmas adventure...but there sure were alot of moments that reminded me of the Griswolds...christmas vacation....we decided to for the first time ever...cut our own christmas tree...so just around the corner from me is the Xerri's Christmas tree farm http://www.xerrisxmastrees.com/index.htm so they basically hand you a saw..and off you go into this field of trees....when the kids first started we were on the hunt for the perfect christmas tree....we really had no idea how hard this was....after having a fake tree for like 15 years...
here's tonee's homemade "country" mistletoe....

okay by now...it is raining...and snowing...we are soaked about up to our knees..and ready to just close our eyes...spin around and just pick any damn tree...but of course I had to stop and get a picture of us....that Chris took...

okay so here she is....this is the one....and it was so nice to have Chris here..to do the boy work...of chopping it down..(yes..I know us girls could've done it..but it is nice to have a guy to do that stuff) and this was his first time with a real tree..too..so he was all into it...plus what guy doesn't like to chop things down??

we were so beat by now...but we had to drag her back to the barn

so she could get shaked.

and tied up

.....da..dahhh...isn't she TINY!!! after they bundled it up....she looked so small...I could've just fit her in the back of my car.....but as a die hard scrapbooker..there was no way I was passing up the chance to have her on the top of the car....for a cute photo op...

no we are starting to decorate!! and I can't wait to scrap these....because my butt is staying home today....taking a day of the gym..did 6 days in a row...and I am beat..~~

Great Lakes weight and wellness week 12 weigh in on optifast

I am so tired in this video...the working out is wiping me out..but it feels good in some weird way...can you see the clip it up behind me...is that weird to keep it on your couch?? ha,ha...and just so you know the empty cottage cheese container...is not mine...it's sommers...again..doesn't everybody keep cottage cheese containers on the couch!!! Off to get some decorations for our tree....trying to give it a simple look this year...will post some pics tomorrow....6 more pounds til' the wii fit...yahoo!!!