Scrappy Chic Design Team

I am sad to say that this will be my last month on the Scrappy Chic Design team.....I decided not to reapply..plus my girls Jeniece and Renee...aren't going to be there either, but I am going to miss being on the team...it's been a great year.....(can't believe it's been a year).....and the girls at the store and Chris have always been fun to work for and with!!! and it's kinda cool to walk through the store and see my family on the walls...... And I can't wait to see some new faces on the team....So for now...I will just enjoy the 2 more months I have left...on the Tally Scrapper Design team.....then for the first time in 2 years ...i won't be on any Design teams....don't know if I like that idea.....So here's a pic of why I love design teams......the product!!!

I got my kit from Tally Scrapper yesterday.....and I am itching to play....So I hope to do some scrappin' this weekend.....

hung out with jeniece last night....we really weren't in the mood for croppin' so we went window shoppin' to the scrapbook stores.....hit Scrappy Chic...and the Zone...looking for some inspiration!!

no mojo....!!! where has it gone??

I need this!! Okay...I don't need it....but I want it real bad....thanks to Tami over at Tally Scrapper that brought it to my attention...I think they're getting it in...in the next few days!! Check out the yummy gaffer tape..... and this paper.......this could cure my mojo problem....
I'ts gone!! I've lost it.....my mojo!! I think jeniece stold it!! give it back girl.....So because I can't go a full 24hours without scrappin' I decided to do a challenge over at Tally Scrapper..and you had to use this magazine article as your inspiration....... so I did a layout....of my coke run....and yes..I know that you're lovin' that beautiful coca cola paper.....but hey it came in handy here...

and then I also did a little lifting from the talented Ali Edwards...this one was from her new book.....life artist...which I love!! and the paint circle idea is one of jenieces techniques I also borrowed!! she used one of my lids to do this at the last crop we went to.....so I gave it a try ....too...

3:30AM !!!

Okay....I tried to give up my pop "cold turkey" I hadn't had any since sunday!!! Until I woke up at 3 in the morning with a migraine from hell!!! So picture me at the local BP gas station at 3:30 in the morning...in slippers...hair all a messs.....grabbing 3 2-liters and a can of mountain dew that I slammed in the parking lot!! and then proceded to throw up my dinner......yikes!! I know to much info.....but it was awful.....I felt like a junkie getting my fix!! So maybe the "cold turkey" way isn't for me.........so maybe I will just cut back....for now....I got some unexpected happy mail.....from Michelle...check out the cute stamps and awesome flowers......thanks Michelle....always makes my day to get happy mail!!!! and your card is so cute!!!

when I made my unhealthy..layout I messed up on the first picture I printed...made it too..dark..but I couldn't figure out anything to scrap...and then I seen this pic peeking out of the garbage...and thought I would just chop it up a little.....

and this is another page for my art journal....yes it's made out of a sugar free reese's bag...when I was cleaning up my room...I found one of Ed's empty packages...(he loved that he could get these in sugar free).....so I thought it would be a cute memory for the girls....

on another note....last week I did group grief couseling....and this week I did some one on one...counseling (yes i am taking full advantage of the counseling) , but after I spilled my guts, my worries, my loss.........she said that she thinks I am normal....I am grieving normal....my worries are normal...she said the fact that you can share stories of your husband, look at pictures and enjoy memories.....laugh...you're going to be okay!!! Which I have to say felt good to hear a professional say that I was normal....she doesn't even want to see me again...unless I need to.....she said you're going to be sad, you lost your soulmate.....but you still need to keep living.....so your going to cry.....you'r going to miss him........that's normal..she also mentioned that I must have an awesome support system!! I told her oh yeah....I have alot of friends....real life ones...online ones...and family...who have been there with me every step.....She said alot of how you heal, is about how your relationship was with the person you lost, your feelings on "Faith", and your support system........{{{thanks guys}}}

I showed her a picure of us....and the first thing she said was that he had the most caring thoughtful eyes......I told her you have no idea!!!

you will have to forgive me for all the babbling....remember I am drunk on diet coke!!! as we speak.......yahoooo!!!

IKEA

I was looking for a small desk....for my bedroom....and after going to scrappy chic...I seen the Ikea sign...in canton..so I got off the expressway..to check it out!! Oh my gosh...I had no Idea...that Ikea was so huge...and the cutest stuff!! I kid you not that I am sore...from walking through the store, I wasn't sure how it worked, got kinda lost in the showroom area........
and here are some of the treasures I stumbled across at the yard sale, I love the labels right now...and word stickers....which Erin helped me find a few of these.....

and these months....are so yummy and those letters.....

and then these cute rubons in green and red that come in these cute tins...there were so many people at the sale.....and lots of stuff..!!! But I am getting better at knowing what I will use or not use..........finally!!

Yard Sale

I am getting ready to take off to the yard sale at Scrappy Chic....this is the first time I am not getting rid of stuff...so it will be fun to just go and check out other scrappers stuff...hoping to find some out of date...treasures....I scrapped some more yesterday...should've been cleaning my house...but I scrapped instead....somethings never change..ha,ha!! This first layout is for a challenge over at Tally Scrapper....it's called love your body....everybody took some cool pics...actually showing their body!! but I would'nt do that to you...so I took this pic with the scale....which I think makes a point...journaling on the back just talks about how it's now about being cute in a pair of jeans anymore...it's about being healthy...and being here for my girls.....and it's all up to me.... now to the less serious layouts....me an my family at the restaurant..
and I wasn't sure if I already posted this one...but it's a pic of the snow storm we got in december....love taking snow pics... Well I am out of here...have a great sunday!!

an empty house

last night I came home to find out that Tonee' is moving out..(she says just for a few weeks)...and she is 18....even though she was pretty much gone all summer...after Ed passed she came home...and to be honest it's been nice having her here....but I know she's go to go figure out her own life....then Sommer tells me she wants to go spend the night at her uncle mikes......so out the door..she goes...but before she leaves she has to inform me that even though daddy's gone...she will probably always stay a daddy's girl!!! Ouch!! So I ordered chinese....put on the marathon of Americas Next top model....and Scrapped away.......and first one done...was of Sommer finally!! I've been told I have been slacking on the sommer layouts....and then one of me painting....used the new basic grey two scoops...it kinda looks painted itself!!
and then one of us croppin' at Renee's

and I did another page for my art journal......need to start punching some holes!! this on is about my first grief counseling meeting....

I think me and Sommer are going to run up to Scrappy Chic tomorrow to check out the yard sale they're having.........hopefully come across a few "cheap" treasures!!!

Oh yeah and if you get a chance go check me out I am layout of the day over at iscrap http://www.iscrap.net/scrapbooking-community.cfm

I wanted to thank everybody for all the supportive comments yesterday after my post.....I know that you're all still out there...thinking of us....{{hugs}}

11 weeks

Fridays are always a reminder of the last day I saw Ed.....I can't believe that it has been 11 weeks...., at first I couldn't imagine him not walking through the front door.....but now I am afraid that it's getting harder to imagine him walking through that door.......that scares me.....plus I've caught myself trying not to look at the pictures on the walls of him......I was walking down the hallway...yesterday..and I felt my eyes hit the floor...when I walked past the pics...because when I do look...I just want to pull him through those pics...and it makes me stare....and miss the lil' things...it's weird...but I stare at his arms, his ears...his eyes....his smile..his hair...I miss every single part of him...that I thought I would have for alot longer....Oops there I go again!!!.....ranting.. Okay..I have a suggestion for when you're having a crummy day....Hot Red Nail Polish!!! Oh yeah....Jeniece brought some over on project runway night!!! and there is something uplifting about looking down at those red nails.....and also notice something else on my hand....My wedding band....during the painting and moving of furniture....I found my band under sommers bed.....It's funny that we found both our rings......now!!! But it felt good to put it back on.....and here's another peek at my bedroom....that I just painted...and put the wall words...that christine from Tally Scrapper gave me.....I love them ...and it's a saying I beleive....in...even though there isn't as much "laughter" at there was 11 weeks ago.....but we're trying....
we were just talking about how after a few weeks everybody starts getting on with their lives and the cards and phone calls stop.....and then all of a suden...I got 2 cards in the mail......the just thinking of you cards!!! From Jessie and JJ!! thanks guys...both made my day......always gives me a boost.....

you know what else gives me a boost!! A free yellowfence T-shirt in the mail!!! Already!!! and don't forget to go leave a comment on their blog today!!! http://yellowfence.blogspot.com/

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