148 pounds lost

Okay I obviously had no idea what an uproar...me driving on my video...would cause!! But if you REALLY know me...you know that I would never do anything to hurt anyone....and no excuses..but I was on a side dirt road......I drive like a grandma always...and at no time did I feel out of control, I'm just not the daredevil type.....but so this will stop being talked about...I yanked my video...so everybody can relax now. But if you care I lost 1 pound this week....bringing my total loss to 148...pounds...

so glad it's the weekend....not much going on.....lots of homework to do..Tonee' took this pic...in Anatomy class on friday!!! He's going to bring me luck in this class...he stand right in front of my desk!! and then came home to these rugrats in my pool!!! alyssa looks so cute with her water drenched cracker hanging out of her mouth!!
and mimi brought over some rocket pops!!! which mikey was lovin'

and my brother got the 4 wheeler going.....

and the kids all fought over who got to sit on uncle eds 4 wheeler, even I took it for a few laps...it felt good!! and there was no camera catching that ...thank goodness!!!

and even gonna throw some scrappin' in here.....this is the layout I did for the sketch blog...if you haven't checked out the blog...please go see it... http://scrapideesleblog.canalblog.com/

2 pages I did on sunday....
we have been sick since monday night....don't know what hit us..but it hit us hard!! but hope it's gone.....back to school today...we just started anatomy and a computer class about the ethomas program....I think mom is coming out tonight, gonna babysit the nephew and neice tomorrow.....I hear it 's going to be like 90 today...hot!!! lucky I filled up the kiddie pool last night!!

Scrapidees le blog

I was so thrilled to be asked to be featured on a sketch blog called Scrapidees le blog http://scrapideesleblog.canalblog.com/ they just did my post today, and I hope you will all go there and check it out...check out my sketch and my layout...and maybe leave some love over there!!! It's a great blog...and you would not believe how awesome the design teams take on my sketch turned out..it was very cool to see all the different styles...that came from one sketch...so please go check it out!! thanks everybody....and on another note I wanted to post my latest layout, from my surprise birthday party, and pics of the awesome boobie cupcakes that me and erin are showing off.....
probably skipping weigh in tonight, no drama reason or anything...but just got home from school, my mom, neice, are over...plus we started our new mod today anatomy and computers(ethomas) and we have a test tomorrow..already!! now that isn't right!! but everything is good...and I will be back next monday....Oh and fathers day went as good as it could've took a couple pics I will post tomorrow....bye!! life is busy...but life is good right now....

Fathers day 2009 me and the girls went to cemetery, this picture just says to me that this is my life right now....and as we shared about how much we missed their dad...and we knew he would've been carving the watermelon, and wrapping the cabbage....and it started out sad, but before we knew it, we were laughing about all the things he used to do..all the memories he left us, and even though the girls only had him a short time, we realize how lucky we were because he left them with all good memories, that we will pass down..forever...and some people have dads their entire life......without great memories!!

when we got home I had a cookout for the other dad's in my life, my brother and my dad...we just cooked some burgers on the grill.......
and after everyone left....this is how I spent the rest of the day.....

Happy Fathers Day

Well it's fathers day and I am trying to get in the mood....to at least celebrate my father, but it is heartbreaking to watch my girls hurt, every fathers day commercial....everybody that mentions fathers day...just kinda shoves a dagger into your heart......but we need to adjust...and we are but that doesn't mean the adjusting isn't painful, but we will pull it together, and I am cooking out for the family today, and then me and the girls will probably run to the cemetary...just to take a minute to slow down, and celebrate what an wonderful father Ed was...and what we wouldn't give to have him flippin' those burgers today with us...I grilled out last night too...tried to make some veggie kabobs...but did put some shrimp on their at the end...
they're so good!!! and like no calories!!!

here's the page I started on thursday..and finished up yesterday...felt good to scrap, I might scrap somemore today...., also need to start figuring out what I am going to pack for Texas..It's going to be different packing for something that far away...but going to try and only pack what I love...and I still wonder how much actual scrappin' I will do...I've signed up for a couple classes while I'm there, like a canvas class, make buttons class, henna tattoo.....can't wait!!.....but it feels good to not have anything to study this weekend...we start our new mod on monday, so we find out what new classes and stuff

look at this cute mini book holder I picked up from Scrappy Chic....I think it's from chatterbox...?? and I love it.....sorry the pic is on it's side...didn't realize til I already posted it.... Not much being going on, had the neice and nephew over in the pool.....and while they were swimming we seen the goodyear blimp fly right over us...was really cool...lil' mikey loved it!!

Yesterday me and Tonee' found out, we both passed our Med Terms final with 100%....it was funny they give you 2 chances to take the test, and if you get 100% you get a special award...so on the first test we both did good got 99% but we wanted that 100% award, so we studied our butts off ( I wish that was literally) and we got it!! it felt amazing...and I am so proud of Tonee' for giving her all in...these classes.......Not much going on this weekend....Having a cookout for fathers day, and probably take the girls to the cemetary to put some flowers out for Ed..but besides that....I think it's going to be a pretty quiet weekend....and you know that's okay with me. I actually scrapped a little last night..but didn't finish...and I've been working on my stuff for the Texas Tally Rally.....for next month...I am so excited, me and Tonee' even did a drive through the airport....because I've never flown...I'm nervous.....!! But ready.....

for some reason...couldn't load my youtube video on here this week..so if you want to see it..here is my you tube page... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_788txmeYgs&feature=channel_page

scrappin' time

jeniece had to back out of scrappin' with me last night, so I was all by my lonesome hangin' out at scrappy chic, which is probably why I actually got 4 layouts done!!! but it was fun they had a yummy chicken dinner, and I got to chat with some of the regulars.....and most important I scrapped, and then all of these are for the DT so I played and worked...

now it's time to study, I have my med-terms big test on monday, I need to know 350 terms...and I have a book report in my other class due...so I need to get busy...plus spend some time with sommer....

fell off the wagon

I am reading this book for a book report at school, and it is unbelievable....it takes you from the moment you get the news...through the first hours,days...weeks...and it's creepy how exact it is.....it was so head on..that I cried alot through the first few pages...brought back alot of feelings, but it also has all those questions I ask myself over and over...and they answer alot of them, so anyone who has lost someone suddenly...I would recommend this book!!

it also talks about losing friends...during times like this...and how it's hard for people to be around you if your sad, it says some people literally want you to get over it....and if your sad that makes them sad....and how you will lose touch with some friends....which by the way I have been very lucky there...but there was one part in the book, where it talks about what you need out of a friend during this time, and I wanted to post this for my best friend Jeniece....who only God knows what this girl has had to put up with me....over the last almost 2 years, and as my bff she would never admit to it...but I know it's not always been easy...but she fits this to a tee....and every time I read it..it makes me cry...cause this is you girl...

NEEDED: A strong, deep person wise enough to allow me to grieve in the depth of who I am, and strong enough to hear my pain without turning away.

I need someone who believes that the sun will rise again, but who does not fear my darkness. Someone who can point out the rocks in my way without making me a child by carrying me. Someone who can stand in thunder and lightning and believe in a rainbow.

that's her exactly!!! Love ya girl...

Scrapbooking & Beyond summer 2009

I got my copy of scrapbooking & beyond summer issue..that I'm in
and I love how they photographed my layout....very cool!! this was my first time in their mag...and I love how it turned out!! hope to have more in there....in the future..

can't believe the weekend is almost over...only 2 more days of school for sommer and she can't wait!!!

seriously...my birthday turned out to be the best birthday ever!! I think it is officially going down in the books as the best!!
Completely was surprised!! tricked!!! Even got the jump up scream surprise when I walked in.....and we will just say that the entertainment was "Pure Romance"......so much fun!!! And so many of my friends...some I haven't seen in ages!! thank you all ...who came out to help me celebrate!!! I will never forget it.....some of the images...I might want to......ha,ha!! lots of food, laughing.....presents (thanks!!) and a bonfire to boot!! I have the best friends....in the world...I don't know how I got so blessed!!! but I am.....we didn't really take pics...but there is one on the way...from jeniece...of some pics of my boobie cupcakes!! it's hot!! will post as soon as she sends it!!

A great birthday....

well it's official I'm 38...and you know what...that's okay..I feel better now than I did in my 20's...so I will take it!! I know yesterday morning...I started out a little down, but through out the day...it got better, first when I showed up to school....there was this birthday present waiting for me,and then the girls sang happy birthday to me...loved every second of it...but I was not expecting them to get me a present!! was so thoughtful..and put a smile on my face, that I kept for the rest of the day, it was funny....the teacher came up to us...and said no matter when ever she looks back at our table we have a smile on our face!! I think that's a great compliment.....oh..and the gift was full of scrapbook stuff...and a Happy 29th birthday card they all signed!! love the 29!! then came home to mom and dad.....mom cooked a big ol' yummy pot of chicken noodle soup, some cherry pie..!!

and one of all of Us girls!!

and then later my brother showed..up!!

even my aunt denise dropped in...for a surprise visit!! and brought me these beautiful flowers

woot!!! woot!!! now you know I was excited when I seen this sitting on my table!!! from mom.....

she picked out these dangle charm, and she said it's because the blue reminded her of Ed's eye color....I love it!!! she kept saying I could exchange for one I wanted, but for me...having one that somebody else picked out!! makes it 10times more special.....

she also got me these cute vases that say live and laugh....yum!!

and dad found me this lawnchair that matches my chairs outside...I am so into the neon colors....I guess a child of the 80's will do that!!

but it was a great birthday.....thanks for all the birthday wishes!!! I felt the love for sure!! but it's not over...still going out with my bff tonight!!

It's my birthday and I can cry if I want to....

well it's my birthday....and I was looking forward to it..but now that it's here, I am fighting the birthday blues a little bit (just being honest) but I am gonna fight them with all I have and enjoy my day.....the family is coming over tonight which is good, and tomorrow..I am going out with jeneice...and she's still not telling me what we are doing!!! But for the first time...I am older than Ed..and that is just weird to me, and I try not to think of it...but I do!! But I am thankful...to be blessed with getting a 38th birthday..and I am not going to waste it..feelin' crappy!! So either song....It's my birthday and I can cry if I want to...or Big girls don't cry!!ha,ha...wanted to show you what my bff got me...these gorgeous dangle earrings...that she designed..and her talented mother made...and they're my favorite color orange...!! they're so beautiful!!!and was very cool to get an article in the Monroe Evening news on tuesday talking about our heartwalk, and Great Lakes Weight and Wellness...!! Okay gonna thank everybody for their donations again...and I like that they mentioned I was walking for my hubby!!
and then I did scrap a little.....love this paper!! I think it's october afternoon

Okay off to school....quiz today...!!! the girls at school have threatened that they're going to sing happy birthday....Oh Lord!!

weigh in with gunshots!!

how the heck can it be monday already!!!? 3 more days til' my birthday....doing the birthday dance....supposed to go out with my bff on friday, and she won't tell me where (brat).....makes me a little nervous!! but I will go with it.....another crazy busy weekend...but I did manage to scrap a tiny bit...love this pic of Tonee' and her friend Heather..in these cute heels....they're all decked out...Tonee' is rockin' the newly "single" thing...love to see her happy again!! Weigh in tonight...not expecting a big number, to be honest not expecting any number, I haven't done anything awful, but haven't been on track either...to be honest...I've been having fun...but I need to get my butt back to the gym, and watching my calorie intake again....so back to the real world, but loss or gain..I will do a video tonight!!