challenge

over at tally scrapper we each had to challenge each other to do a layout a certain way...my challenge from dillydallytally was to do a layout with at least 3 pics, pastel colors and no pattern paper.....(the pastel colors and no patterned paper...hurt me real bad) ha,ha!! but here is my layout..the paper looks gray but is actually a light green..

I was given 2 books that I'm reading this first one is the ....one I've read most...really inspirational....
but this one I've only read a few pages....and it scared the "scrap" out of me.....as soon as one guy said he seen his sister in his closet...(by the way , she's not alive) not to sure I'm ready for this one yet......but I've heard it is a great book.....maybe soon...I can do this one...

hump day

Not much going on...over here...ran up to Scrappy Chic last night...with Sommer...then came home and scrapped.....these are 2 layouts I got finished at the red cross crop over the weekend...this one of me and boo....love this paper, I got in the clearance at Scrappy Chic...and finally scrapped this pic of jeniece....she's crazy!! and then I got another page done for my art journal for Tally Scrapper...the journal prompt...was "the truth is"

when I posted this.....one of the comments was "your layouts seem so sad..beautiful , but sad" and at first I thought...oh..my gosh are they all sad...but you know what I am sad....and I think that a journal does reflect what you're feelin' right now....so this means that my feelin's are coming across in my journal....'cause yep...I'm sad...for sure!!

Red Cross Crop

on my way to the red cross crop.....was so hoping to get some pages done...I made out like a bandit....I won a couple drawings...this was the grand prize drawing...just tons of supplies!!!then i won a 12x12 album

I also won this ...which has these awesome heidi grace letters...and yummy paperand all this goodness was in our goodie bags when we got there....

so it was like "scrap" christmas.........

and I did get a couple pages done...

heartbreaking

just found out that a friend of mine (Carla) lost her dad today......I know that like my Sommer she has always been a daddys girl.....and my heart is just aching for her....and her Mom..(Kathy) who I know is just heartbroken....these 2 ladies are the most giving, sweet, women...who have been here for me......and I just hope I can be there for them.....hope everybody will keep them in their thoughts and prayers as they go through this nightmare.......

weekend crop

Last night....headed to Monroe for the Red Cross Weekend Crop...with Jeniece....on the way..had a little random act of kindness....needed air in my tire, and another person, pulled up...to the air at the same time..and then he told me that he would put air in my tire...and to go ahead and get back in the van...it's freezing!!...it's was just nice to have somebody do something nice....So off we go to the crop....which we were running late because somebody...(i won't mention any names) showed up late!!! "Jendell" There was such an awesome turnout for the crop...I think we had like 36 or 37 croppers......here's a pic of Jeniece and JJ.....look at all those croppers.......
and here's me!! doing what I love most....teaching!! (not) I stink at it...just not my thing...but I did it...to help out...but now we have a close to my heart lady that is going to do make n' takes...so I had fun doing her make n' take!!! and now here is where I should have a picture of the page I finished last night....except..there isn't anything.......I did'nt do one page...from 6pm till midnight!!! I've lost it.....no mojo...not a drop.....But I am heading back to crop there today till 9pm!! So I am hoping to at least get one page done!!!

"whatever"

getting ready to go croppin' with the CM peeps....in Monroe...hope that the magic "mojo" scrap fairy.....shows up...tried to scrap last night...but couldn't do it....but i finished another art journal page....a few days ago and I've been working on the calender from my Tally Scrapper kit.....
yesterday i was feelin' all PMS'y without the "M".....was in bed last night..by 10pm which is early....for me.....just felt all orniry(sp)....and grouchy...and pissed....(I was having a feel sorry for myself...want my "edward" back moment) But hanging out with friends tonight should put me back on the right track.......

Somerset Memories Feb/Mar issue!!

I was so excited to get my copy of Somerset memories today.....but then to see that I am on the same page...as Renee....makes it even better, we kinda thought we would be in the same issue...but never imagined the same page......here we are on page 72...I'm the top page.....come you remember my small "heidi" addiction......and then renee's is on the bottom...a beautiful layout about her mom who passed away about a week after Ed....so I have to say that she has been a great friend...through both of our nightmares.....and she is a constant inspiration with her scrapbooking too.... and I can't wait to we go see Kristina Contes!!!!!!

who ordered this snow??? I did!

was surprised to wake up to this snow.....today!! gorgeous!!Check out my cute "feather" babies.....they hate the snow.....but we have a new addition to the chicken family.....
Meet Jendell.....yeah..I saved his but from being in a big pot of Chicken noodle soup......!!!! But don't look his cute look fool ya....look what he did!!!

he beat my lil' rooster up.......look at his bloody lil face....OUCH!!! this is the thanks I get!! Picture me out in the back yard....chasing these two...and the lil guy just kept on fighting.......they seem better today.....I hope!!

I scrapped a little last night......this one of lil mikey...on my moms birthday...he pushed this box, over to where we were sitting, and with a lil smirk..climbed on top of the box!!! so cute!!I also...did another page in the art journal........

Tonee' came by for a visit yesterday.....was so good to see her...and think she actually missed us too....I think me and sommer were so starved for attention....or other human contact..we may have scared her off........I can tell she's missing her dad....alot right now...and I think it must be easier to be gone, and then to come home...and he's not here...I think it's a little overwhelming....It breaks my heart that I can't heal her heart......, My mom has told me before that it's hard to watch me go through what I am going through...and not be able to fix the pain....and I think I know what she means...

Monday Morn'

such a long weekend.......hung out with Sommer on saturday, went to gibralter trade center, they had some scrapbook show going on....then we hit super china buffet for dinner........(our fav restaurant)....so then came the idea for another art journal page....everytime we read our fortune from our cookie, we say "under the sheets" after it.........so another memory...caught and scrapped!!so even though I wasn't feelin' the mojo....that usually doesn't stop me from scrappin' so I did get a couple pages done too... I also got the sweetest card from Robin!!! thanks girl.......

Scrappy Chic Design Team

I am sad to say that this will be my last month on the Scrappy Chic Design team.....I decided not to reapply..plus my girls Jeniece and Renee...aren't going to be there either, but I am going to miss being on the team...it's been a great year.....(can't believe it's been a year).....and the girls at the store and Chris have always been fun to work for and with!!! and it's kinda cool to walk through the store and see my family on the walls...... And I can't wait to see some new faces on the team....So for now...I will just enjoy the 2 more months I have left...on the Tally Scrapper Design team.....then for the first time in 2 years ...i won't be on any Design teams....don't know if I like that idea.....So here's a pic of why I love design teams......the product!!!

I got my kit from Tally Scrapper yesterday.....and I am itching to play....So I hope to do some scrappin' this weekend.....

hung out with jeniece last night....we really weren't in the mood for croppin' so we went window shoppin' to the scrapbook stores.....hit Scrappy Chic...and the Zone...looking for some inspiration!!

no mojo....!!! where has it gone??

I need this!! Okay...I don't need it....but I want it real bad....thanks to Tami over at Tally Scrapper that brought it to my attention...I think they're getting it in...in the next few days!! Check out the yummy gaffer tape..... and this paper.......this could cure my mojo problem....
I'ts gone!! I've lost it.....my mojo!! I think jeniece stold it!! give it back girl.....So because I can't go a full 24hours without scrappin' I decided to do a challenge over at Tally Scrapper..and you had to use this magazine article as your inspiration....... so I did a layout....of my coke run....and yes..I know that you're lovin' that beautiful coca cola paper.....but hey it came in handy here...

and then I also did a little lifting from the talented Ali Edwards...this one was from her new book.....life artist...which I love!! and the paint circle idea is one of jenieces techniques I also borrowed!! she used one of my lids to do this at the last crop we went to.....so I gave it a try ....too...

3:30AM !!!

Okay....I tried to give up my pop "cold turkey" I hadn't had any since sunday!!! Until I woke up at 3 in the morning with a migraine from hell!!! So picture me at the local BP gas station at 3:30 in the morning...in slippers...hair all a messs.....grabbing 3 2-liters and a can of mountain dew that I slammed in the parking lot!! and then proceded to throw up my dinner......yikes!! I know to much info.....but it was awful.....I felt like a junkie getting my fix!! So maybe the "cold turkey" way isn't for me.........so maybe I will just cut back....for now....I got some unexpected happy mail.....from Michelle...check out the cute stamps and awesome flowers......thanks Michelle....always makes my day to get happy mail!!!! and your card is so cute!!!

when I made my unhealthy..layout I messed up on the first picture I printed...made it too..dark..but I couldn't figure out anything to scrap...and then I seen this pic peeking out of the garbage...and thought I would just chop it up a little.....

and this is another page for my art journal....yes it's made out of a sugar free reese's bag...when I was cleaning up my room...I found one of Ed's empty packages...(he loved that he could get these in sugar free).....so I thought it would be a cute memory for the girls....

on another note....last week I did group grief couseling....and this week I did some one on one...counseling (yes i am taking full advantage of the counseling) , but after I spilled my guts, my worries, my loss.........she said that she thinks I am normal....I am grieving normal....my worries are normal...she said the fact that you can share stories of your husband, look at pictures and enjoy memories.....laugh...you're going to be okay!!! Which I have to say felt good to hear a professional say that I was normal....she doesn't even want to see me again...unless I need to.....she said you're going to be sad, you lost your soulmate.....but you still need to keep living.....so your going to cry.....you'r going to miss him........that's normal..she also mentioned that I must have an awesome support system!! I told her oh yeah....I have alot of friends....real life ones...online ones...and family...who have been there with me every step.....She said alot of how you heal, is about how your relationship was with the person you lost, your feelings on "Faith", and your support system........{{{thanks guys}}}

I showed her a picure of us....and the first thing she said was that he had the most caring thoughtful eyes......I told her you have no idea!!!

you will have to forgive me for all the babbling....remember I am drunk on diet coke!!! as we speak.......yahoooo!!!

IKEA

I was looking for a small desk....for my bedroom....and after going to scrappy chic...I seen the Ikea sign...in canton..so I got off the expressway..to check it out!! Oh my gosh...I had no Idea...that Ikea was so huge...and the cutest stuff!! I kid you not that I am sore...from walking through the store, I wasn't sure how it worked, got kinda lost in the showroom area........
and here are some of the treasures I stumbled across at the yard sale, I love the labels right now...and word stickers....which Erin helped me find a few of these.....

and these months....are so yummy and those letters.....

and then these cute rubons in green and red that come in these cute tins...there were so many people at the sale.....and lots of stuff..!!! But I am getting better at knowing what I will use or not use..........finally!!